WELCOME TO MY HEAD!

Its the last day in April, and to God, I has hoping to get a feedback from TAPIF, also, today, I was meant to give feedback to the apartment agent if I was taking the house or not. Clearly, I am not! I will sound repetitive if I saw I am tired, but honestly, I am extremely tired and fed up. No response, No salary, No anything. 

Monday again!!!! My transportation has doubled. goshhhhh.  I wish I left this country right after convo. I hate it here soooo much. I wish God will tell me expressly if He wants me to stay or go. Every move I have made to leave has been unsuccessful and tbh, I am tired tired!!! So yes I feel rather depressed today. 

I love sundays. There was drama in church over solo singing and I was thoroughly disgusted and upset about how one of the children handled it, I meannnn, she went to go and disrobe. Such nasty behaviour. CONCERT CONCERT CONCERT!!! Singing is like the only thing that keeps me sane and I am immensely grateful for it.  unfortunately, I made a mistake in my solo but sha, nothing spoil. Monday is here again.  Why did I take that job again???

The Easter Concert Dress Rehearsal was really nice sha. Then we moved to the wedding and honestly it was such a blast!!!! I had such a great time mehnnnn.  Thankfully I was able to relax my hair in preparation for my photoshoot. At least I have what keeps me busy and happy!!!!!!! Branched church to ensure the children were ready for their solos tomorrow. In all, I think this is the best day I've had in a while.

Things are still not looking up. Anyways, I hope this weekend makes me happy. Its soooo packed but I like what I'll be doing this weekend. 

Goshhhhhhh when does it get better???? There has been sooo much drama with going and coming to work these days. I can't believe I shared a bike with a total stranger. wowwwwww.... sooo stressed.

Stressful day once again. Seems I have not had a reasonable day this week.  I really hope one day I see these posts and smile and wonder why I was soooo worried. But for now all I can say is "It is well" 

I cried today 😢😢😢 I went to work even tho I wasn’t feeling my best.  I was able to submit the paper and so I'm left with my work itself 😫. Work was terrible. I really hate it there and more than ever today.  God when do you plan to make it make sense.  I then wanted to go and let off some steam on the court but the unexpected happened. There was terrible traffic from Lagos street roundabout down to station.  And that’s how I trekked from stadium to station after I had waited for so long to even get keke and that’s where I cried. I was just too tired and frustrated. God please now, help me to record a win. Please let TAPIF come out and let me get the offer dear Lord.  Anyways I feel so sad today and I hope tomorrow will be a better day 🙏🏽

Missed posting this yesterday, but better late than ever shaaaa.... its 27 days till I turn 30!!!! How do I feel..... still terrible.  Absolutely tired of this stage of my life. Seems like nothing makes sense. I tried sooo much to avoid decisions that I would regret later, but here I am now, with more than a few regrets.  I was eventually able to submit the paper today. At least a good thing.

Posting this a whole 2 days after.... sighhhhh Church was alright, I guess. My kids did sooo well in their solos and I'm sooo glad that I thought to do this.  The whole Dare issue was mentioned today by the provost and I was sad all over again. Still having a bit of cramps tho. I hate that I didn't really get to rest well this weekend. I guess that is what adulthood is all about. 

I was just about to sleep when I realized I had not clocked in.  Anyways it’s 29 days to 30 🥳🥳🥳 Well today was just there tbh. For the first time since I got this job which by the way is 6 months ago, I went to work on Saturday 😫😫 I was so upset. I initially thought we would all leave after the meeting but alas I didn’t leave till almost 6 and that’s cos I even had to go and buy drugs for mummy.  Speaking of drugs 😫, today I found out that the drugs I had to buy were for blood pressure and diabetes, I don’t even know what to say but I honestly felt soooo sad.  Ohhhh today wasn’t totally bad tho, I got dashed (given) 5,000 naira… whoop whoop 💃🏾💃🏾💃🏾 It was the randomest thing ever, but it was such a pleasant surprise. Anyways rain is falling so off to bed 💃🏾

Hahahahahahaha, I love the sound of that. So yeahhhh, the much awaited period is here. In about 30 days (abi 31 days), I will be 30 years old. Once again, small girl like me, 30, like THIRTYYYYYY 🤯... Wowww.  So, I just got the idea to journal these last few days in my twenties, why?, I really do not know, maybe I just want to keep the memories as a lover of memories. So officially, Welcome to the last 30 days in my 20s 😀😀. So shall we begin? How do I feel today: in one word, I'll say TERRIBLE. I have terrible cramps as a result of my period, and this leads me to probably my most asked question, why do we have to feel so much pain just because we are not pregnant or why does there need to be such a loud, painful, terrifying announcement for my non-pregnant status. In all sincerity, I feel it is totally unfair and uncalled for. So yeah, I do not feel that great right now, hopefully I will feel much better tomorrow. The good thing about all of this is that it is happening during t...