RANDOM MUSINGS!

It is just 11am and the day just seems to be dragging terribly, unfortunately I don’t even have a lot to do at work and I know that I can’t possibly leave so I decided to take a walk. I don’t even have a destination in mind but what I would have loved to do is to get away from everything, run away from everyone. 

All I can visualize right now is a vast empty space with nothing and no one in sight, where I can just be on my own. Where I can be still, where I can let my tears flow with no restrictions. Where I can scream so loud and maybe even play with the sand or run with no one thinking I’m crazy. I wish I could just teleport and find myself there. 
I hate that I feel this way, I hate that my heart feels like it is shattering to tiny pieces like a broken glass, I hate that everything seems to be falling apart. I hate that I have to pretend that I’m fine. I hate that I have to walk back to the office with a fake smile plastered on my face, but I guess that’s all I can do right now.

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